i am crying and sore and i don't want to go. i can't even possibly picture myself taking that test tomorrow. i don't know where my resolve went, but all i can envision in my mind right now is me dumping that bike again. i do not want to go back there this morning. i feel like i have barely slept. my clutch hand hurts. i have bruises i didn't know i had, and i feel like throwing up. that said, it will probably take every ounce of stupidity or resolve i have to get in my car and go back there this morning.