i can't even say what i want to say in this journal. i guess this is that crux moment when you realize how not-journal-like a livejournal is. maybe i will make a private post, but i'm always afraid i will accidentally make it public and then everyone will see something horribly embarassing.
i will be content to call to mind a post i made in january. i believe in my current state, that irrational sadness is far better than irrational rage. fortunately, i am stupid enough to make this transition for myself! how grand!