I feel much better than I did a few days ago. A great deal of this is directly relatable to how warm and loving my friends are. I am very lucky. Things are still a little oogy in my brain, and I have a very clear and bright red reason to pin alot of mood things on, but perspective has been regained in some small measure.
Now I'm thinking good thoughts about getting out on the road in a week and listening to some music. And thinking about collapsing. Goodnight!