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triumphant returnish post

I never posted about my trip to Philly a few weeks ago. It was excellent in every way. My friend Tara from the Genesis boards was there to greet me and cart me around to dinner and to the show. We had cheese fries at Chickie and Pete's which were, I believe, the best cheese fries I have ever had. It was endlessly wonderful to talk with people who understand how I feel about the music. The show itself was breathtaking and even more so given what I've learned about drums since I went to the AC show. My hat is off to Martin, this is not just a tribute, this is artistry. I got all choked up at several points and I'm not afraid to admit it. Pre & Post show occurred at a nearby bar (the name of which I cannot, unfortunately, remember) where I met up with the drummer from Trespass and Joe from my home state and his wife. I really wish I could know that wasn't the last time I'll see the show. Sunday morning Jack and I visited the most beautiful and gracious hostess angela_la_la for pumpkin pancakes and sausage the thought of which is making my mouth water even now.

It's unfortunate that directly after that weekend everything went to hell.

Last weekend I did get to participate in many xmas-related events; tree trimming with Jack's fam, the big annual friend party with the singing of the MST3K carols, and an actual trip to the actual mall for actual christmas shopping (most of mine was online).

And the truth is that everything has not gone to hell. I spend just enough time with music and thinking about music that it gives me hope and makes me feel better. Work turning to shit has been tough, it's hurt alot of other areas of my life, and made my tooth-gnashingly grumpy more often than not, but I've done the best I can and there's something to that. I just hope to be able to regain the forward momentum I had in all those other areas of my life once things calm down a little. Most specifically, to nail down whether I'm applying to UMB for fall of '06 and getting all the myriad details of that set. I do get to have my week off after Christmas largely due to sacrifice on someone else's part, and I plan to spend it yeah, having fun, but also knocking things off the to-do list and getting some perspective.

Am I in the holiday spirit? A little. In certain ways. I feel way, way too isolated to really be socially generous and outgoing. The work thing sent me into "get through this" mode and since the real deadline for everything is January 2, that means the "get through this" mood is being involuntarily applied to the actual holidays and my actual time off. I've been saying to people: "$VP ruined Christmas" and when I say it, that's what I mean. Maybe I will be able to let it go, I hope so.

I do love my friends and I do feel some special warmth from certain corners. I'm grateful to those of you who emailed me and to Trace who let me unload on her a little and to Jody for being universally supportive about work and for making those cheese balls. ^_^

Books finished: Genesis Inside & Out by Robin Platts
Books in progress (still): Shakey (the Neil Young bio) and Ulysses
Netflix: working on Freaks and Geeks, Babatunde Olatunji's african drumming
WoWarcraft: Finally felt like getting back into this, mostly want to be playing the level 12 hunter.
Drums: Working on rock beat 5 & 6, paradiddles. Need to spend more time. 1+ hours a day.

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msteleute
Dec. 23rd, 2005 05:30 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you have your vacation intact!! I really like Freaks and Geeks I just finshed watching Haxon. That was something else let me tell you. L. is sending you an email btw. Have a great holiday with your parents if I don't see you before I go. Tell them I said hello!!
traceracer
Dec. 23rd, 2005 09:07 pm (UTC)
It was my pleasure! Not your stressing out, of course, but to be there to listen. :)
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