we drove home around 1am, it took under 2 hours, but i was up for 2 more hours crying. why? i don't know. but my strong suspicion is that the nuvaring is making me fucking psycho. my confidence in this little project is wavering. can i stand being this miserable and unpredictable for another few months hoping it will even out? (that's rhetorical)
woke up, eyes puffy and dry, still felt like crying. did NOT want to go to softball practice. but forced myself to go, and it was worth it, even though i proved x10 how ridiculously not in shape i am. let's just say my vision swam. it was also ass-crack--of-hell hot and i got a sunburn. i am sure i will get used to it before games start... in LESS THAN TWO WEEKS. right? buh.