I have begun a new health regime. I have thrown away all the unapproved foods (that I own) in the house. tzel took me grocery shopping yesterday, and I bought all the things that will hopefully sustain me and still be vaguely enjoyable. I am visualizing to assist myself: I am going through a door which locks behind me. On the other side of that door is all the food that slows me down and saps my energy, the food that spikes my insulin production and screws up my metabolism. It is a glass door and I can see all that food behind me, if I look (this is to represent the fact that I know I will see people around me eat this kind of food. I know I will be tempted.) but when I walk up to the door, I know it will be locked, and I know I will not be able to go back through it. So there is no point in even dwelling on the sight of that food or thinking about what that food is like. I have to look forward because I cannot get back through that door. It would only be a regression. The place I am walking toward that I must be on this side of the door to reach is a place with symbols that represent what I want: a forest with trees to climb, something I cannot do anymore. A baseball field with a diamond to run, something which currently makes me feel winded and sick. Part Two, the "exercise" in "diet and exercise" will be to DDR or something like that for thirty minutes 5 days a week after work. I hope I can remember how to hook up the playstation.
So far the hardest thing is what to eat for breakfast. Everything I have traditionally eaten is high carb, high sugar, and thusly not in the plan. (Read: danishes, croissants, and doughnuts. Bagels are out too.) This morning I am drinking a low carb SlimFast protein shake, and it is foul. Its foul wind is blowing past my nose and I feel a gag reflex. I have been chasing it with grapes but I can see it will be hard to keep this up. I have been at this one for over an hour and haven't finished it yet. There are supposedly some protein shakes that you can make yourself that aren't as bad, but I might need to look into something that's not a shake and not chalky. If anyone has any advice I would love to hear it. I do have some weird cereal but I'd have to wolf that down at home before I left or get up earlier or be late for work.
Hey look! There I am! From dinner with the girls last week. Yay!