damn you sleep. why do you evade me. days like this... i can't have days like this! it's almost 2pm and garrison keillor's soothing voice has failed me. had i know it would be one of those days, i would have taken the drugs. i haven't taken the drugs in over a month. i will try cereal, then beer. then, who the hell knows. at least the living room is clean for book club. god, i am tired. i become dramatic when i'm tired. i hate tired.