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so, i've decided what the deal is with my driving/car problem. i get so freaked out about driving or being a passenger, but i never have nightmares about it. i realize what i do have is waking nightmares. i keep envisioning over and over that guy speeding up on the left suddenly cutting me off and slamming on his brakes causing me to run into him, or someone jumping out of the intersection before they should, slamming into my car, or the 18-wheeler ahead jacknifing across the entire highway, obliterating everyone behind them... i can't tell you how many times i've envisioned accidents far more terrible than the ones i had last year. i get snippets, flashes of the impact, of the airbag inflating, i see my car crumpling. this is why i am such a bad passenger. this is why i am so loathe to drive. i wish i could make it stop. i think it may be impacting my social life.

woke up early so that cheetahmaster and i could hit second story books in rockville. i purchased a number of mental health type books; one neuro-related, and several about asylums and one in particular about the modern use of electroconvulsive therapy. also arundhati roy, paddy chayefsky's altered states, and something else i can't remember. they didn't have any of ian mcewan's other work, nabokov's pale fire, or the unbearable lightness of being, all of which were on my list. oh, and yet another 70s interior design book. i never fail to find one there. god, i so wish i owned a used bookstore. i think maybe i could be happy with that. anyways, despite CM trying to convince me to try some wacky vegetarian place, we went instead to fuddrucker's, which until i was 18 i didn't even want to say the name of for fear i screw it up and say the other word. i accidentally got a POUND size burger. that was just wrong. when we got back everyone was over for knitting night, and i was sad because i had to go to work. there was no answer at work to my inquiring email about the potential changes. weh.

prior to going to sleep yesterday, i got my daily dose of the tv drug. i am getting emotionally high watching stupid dawson's creek. every morning it is the same thing. fucking dawson. fucking stupid creek. at least it's not the weird yearning feeling i used to get as a teenager, it's just kind of this intense pleasure at watching people make out and try to get together with each other. i guess i'm being creepy. i would say it's totally out of character for me, but i think it's more like a secret, horrible, shameful in-character behavior. well, not [secret] i guess since i started with livejournal. if livejournal had existed when i was a teenager, i shudder to think of the results. actually, just look around. you can see what the results would have been. i totally was that girl. ugh. oh, and before you think it's a sexual thing, it's totally not. it's a... romantic thing. but it's not like romance novels would set off that kind of pleasure, because ew. stupid dawson and his stupid creek. so wrong!!! i do not worship at the altar of television! i do not respect the sappiness!! probably in a few weeks this will all be over. i hope so.

off to breakfast with pseudotheist. it is the weekend once again... how did that happen so very fast??? i won't discuss the plans because of my longstanding decision not to discuss future plans in entries because they inevitably end up not happening. i think breakfast is kind of a given at this point though. btw, strangedreams made this icon, because i still haven't figured out how. i read that the font border can be made in photoshop with a blending option though. we'll see.



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Apr. 18th, 2003 06:22 am (UTC)
Which wacky veggie place in rockville did your friends want you to try?
Apr. 18th, 2003 09:17 am (UTC)
i will let him answer if he gets more info, but he just imed me that he doesn't know the name, or exactly where it is, just that it is across from polly esther's on the pike? at least last time he checked.
Apr. 18th, 2003 09:40 am (UTC)
hrm, is that closer to white flint? Was it a Chinese food place?
Apr. 18th, 2003 10:39 pm (UTC)
Past White Flint. It's not really Chinese, it's run by Jains. And *so* tasty.
Apr. 20th, 2003 10:25 am (UTC)
Hrm, what is their name?
Apr. 20th, 2003 10:41 am (UTC)
I don't know the name, hence why I didn't mention it before. :}

I *think* it's this place:
The Vegetable Garden
11618 Rockville Pike, Rockville, MD 20852

but don't quote me on that.
Apr. 21st, 2003 05:32 am (UTC)
ahhhh... ya, I've gone there before.

I still prefer Yuan Fu. It is run by folks who used to work at the vegetable garden... the focus is more on chinese food (a long time ago the vegetable garden didn't sell veggie burgers and such) and it is still vegan and uber yummy. It is just a bit closer to the city of rockville.
Apr. 18th, 2003 06:40 am (UTC)
font borders;
font borders;
layer-effects, outer glow or drop shadow, one of those; then set the blur to one and there's an option you have to set to hard light instead of dissolve. then turn the intensity all the way up to 600. I THINK
Apr. 18th, 2003 07:11 am (UTC)
Capital letters are your friend. They help the eye easily see where the next sentence begins. I can't read your long posts because my eyes wander too much. I don't care so much about proper nouns. In a few hundred years the (E/e)nglish language will phase out the capitalization of those anyway.

This is of course just my opinion. Obviously the responders above me were able to read it.
Apr. 18th, 2003 09:00 am (UTC)
You are correct. It is mere laziness that causes me not to capitalize. And the WALL of text all in lower case does make it harder to read. I will take your suggestion into consideration!! I guess, being vain, I kinda do want people to read my posts.

Or wOuLd It hElP iF I tYpEd LikE thIs???

I know. I'm fired.
Apr. 18th, 2003 12:36 pm (UTC)
I really need to check out Second Story books at some point.
Apr. 20th, 2003 05:59 am (UTC)
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