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things you notice:

well, one thing, that i just noticed:

when you like something alot, nowadays, you go out on the internet, and you search for information about it. i don't know if this has happened to anyone else, but i find that when i do find fan sites/pages/bulletin boards/mailing lists, i get so appalled at the people on them that i feel ashamed for being so fannish. one example is this: when i was in college, i used to get on IRC and also subscribed to a mailing list on the monkees. i was a huge monkees fan, bought the box sets and videos and blah blah blah, but then one time i went to california, to catch up with some of the people i met on IRC and see the kickoff of the most recent (at that time) reunion show. when i did see the unbridled and frightening adulation and even the scary competition between the fans, i was suddenly turned off from the collecting and the desire that i had experienced previously. since that time in my life, i've been less a "fan" of things in general and specifically less enthusiastic about following the latest monkees news. just now, i had a much milder experience visiting the royaltenenbaums community. i just found myself thinking, why am i looking at this? admittedly, it had some information, but i had to ask myself, why am i compelled to find groups of other people who enjoy what i enjoy on the internet?

perhaps this is a very foolish question.

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professorbooty
Jan. 8th, 2002 03:50 am (UTC)
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I often ask myself these same things when I open up my folders for some of the band mailing lists I subscribe to... and yet I remain subscribed. Unfortunately, I have no answers.
snidegrrl
Jan. 8th, 2002 05:21 am (UTC)
Re: ...
sometimes i think that band mailing lists are the WORST. but then, i read the traffic on the Crowded House list and wow. intelligent people who know when it is useful to post. but still, it's the concept of being a "fan" i'm beginning to have a problem with. i don't know if it upsets me that i am not creating anything but merely worshopping someone else's creation, or what. i haven't thought it all through yet.
martinhesselius
Jan. 8th, 2002 04:09 am (UTC)
"but i had to ask myself, why am i compelled to find groups of other people who enjoy what i enjoy on the internet?"

Not sure. Perhaps we talking apes like to engage in trooping behaviour?
snidegrrl
Jan. 8th, 2002 05:27 am (UTC)
hrm, i think i misplaced the emphasis; it isn't the trooping so much as the trooping around something so ephemeral that i wonder about.
martinhesselius
Jan. 8th, 2002 04:12 pm (UTC)
Ah. Perhaps it is the journey, not the destination (or occupation)?
snidegrrl
Jan. 9th, 2002 12:44 am (UTC)
we're getting pretty vague here, but by journey i assume you mean the meeting people and things that go along with fandom? see, if that's what you are saying, that's the problem i have. people i meet through fan activities, those enthusiastic devotees of whatever musician/movie/writer, tend to scare me. if i meet them in that context.
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