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My filling that fell out needed to be replaced with a full crown. *sigh* I tried to be tough but I cried because they had to do the roof-of-the-mouth numbing, and you know how I am about needles. I have a new dentist - my original dentist mysteriously disappeared, and I said a little atheist prayer for her, because I think she got very sick. But I was afraid to ask.

I reached out for a calming visualization and for some reason I imagined pulling on a stout rope, feeling its fibers in my hands. It didn't matter what was at the other end of the rope, I was just counting, hand over hand, feeling every detail, engaging the senses to distract from whatever the hell was going on in my mouth. I am sure this rope image is a direct result of piratical influence. :)

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zenthia
Jun. 5th, 2007 06:28 pm (UTC)
Wow! What a good visualization idea!!! I am so sorry about the crown! I feel personally responsible!!!! I have been teaching the remaining starbursts a lesson.
snidegrrl
Jun. 5th, 2007 06:30 pm (UTC)
Don't feel guity!!! Think about it this way: I might never have known there was a further developing cavity under that filling if it hadn't come out, and then I might have remained unawares until I had to get a root canal!!! So maybe you saved me from that!
zenthia
Jun. 5th, 2007 08:41 pm (UTC)
Well, I feel a little better!! Yay! Tea tonight!!! See you soonish!
tzel
Jun. 5th, 2007 07:02 pm (UTC)
OH, that reminds me. The Taciturn Ranger suggested that rather than being a nurse you might want to look into becoming a physical therapist. That would mean A: moving into an expanding field B: a distinct lack of needles C: helping people in a hands on manner and D: less chance of someone dying on you.

Just a thought.
snidegrrl
Jun. 5th, 2007 09:29 pm (UTC)
I thought maybe the need for physical therapists was less acute, so it would be WAY harder to get in any way funded for that training. But you're right, I shouldn't take it off the table so quickly.

I am trying to tell myself that my needle thing is simply something I've been allowing myself to be afraid of all this time, and I can will myself out of it. We'll see.
salami_salome
Jun. 5th, 2007 08:10 pm (UTC)
That rope image is very resonant. I'm going to think about that.
snidegrrl
Jun. 5th, 2007 09:26 pm (UTC)
It felt like it just came out of nowhere. I thought "I better get my mind outta here before I gag/cry/freak out" and the rope was there. Interesting!
necrocannibal
Jun. 6th, 2007 04:25 am (UTC)
Oh No!!! I called you about something stupid and unrelated, I did not know why you sounded out of it! I hope you are feeling better.
snidegrrl
Jun. 6th, 2007 04:02 pm (UTC)
Never feel bad about calling me, I am happy to assist in any way I can! I am sorry if I sounded like bitchy mcbitchcakes on the phone. I gotta rein that in.
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