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So, tuesday evening I dyed my hair. I had intended a more redhead-with-naturally-higlighted-parts kind of thing, but ended up with orange. I am currently an orangehead. you can observe this by clicking here. This is the result of bleaching some sections first, and then going over the whole thing with Feria's Copper Shimmer. We'll see if it just washes out in a few weeks like last time I used Feria, about 5 years ago. By the way I can't stop listening to Kate Bush's "Wuthering Heights". Over and over and over again. And I am exceedingly nervous about going to NYC tomorrow. Because do I get excited about things? Hell no, I get anxious about them. Great.

I was thinking earlier today about my friends list. I was thinking how it's something people probably pooh-pooh, as if to say I couldn't possibly know that many people or read that many entries. In a way they are right. I was thinking about how there are alot of near-strangers on the list, people I've never met. I'm down with this, I just have a general thing of never having enough newness, new people, new messages, in my life. I realized that the few people that have befriended me, LJ-style, out of the blue, liked me (or the couple of entries they had seen that represented me) enough to want to hear more, which is a huge compliment. From there I thought, you know, I always think that really no one lives a boring life. And everyone lives a boring life. I thought then about fame; we all know that famous people who write web logs garner a following. Like Wil Wheaton, or whatever. But here I am with my own little following of people who I also follow. A mutual fan club. Some people might deride that, and probably think LJ is a big wankfest of mutual admiration. Well, maybe it is but what I think makes me so happy about it is that it's a mutual admiration of ordinariness. Ordinary people. Not that I believe anyone I know is ordinary; or average. I don't know any average people... do you? Anyways, I was hoping to myself that maybe this sort of community building is a step towards deconstructing fame and celebrity. Through the magic of faux-reality TV and hapless ex-celebs, we can see that people we idolize aren't really all that much more special or don't do things more specially than any of the rest of us, they just usually do it with alot more money. Is it the money that makes everything they do seem more interesting or exciting? Or is it just the fact that they are affirmed and adored by so many people? I'm not sure where I am going with this. I guess it's just part of my emerging personal philosophy that devalues celebrity and fame, and values more the supposedly "minor" achievements of well, everyone "else". None of this is to say that Wil Wheaton's blog isn't actually very interesting. It's pretty well-written, actually, from the one time I looked at it. And frankly, I would be remiss if I also didn't mention that the part of LJ and blog philosophy that celebrates the everyperson is probably eclipsed by the gjillions of journals, communities, and comments dedicated to celebrity obsession, nay, worship.

(from professorbooty) Pick a band and answer only using that band's song titles:

Split Enz (Crowded House was too obvious)

1. Are you male or female?: "Betty"
2. Describe yourself: "Conflicting Emotions"
3. How do some people feel about you?: "What's the Matter With You"
4. How do you feel about yourself?: "Clumsy"
5. Describe your girlfriend/boyfriend/interest[/spouse]: "Never Ceases to Amaze Me"
6. Where would you rather be?: "Jamboree"
7. Describe what you want to be: "Bold as Brass"
8. Describe how you live: "Parrot Fashion Love"
9. Describe how you love: "Frenzy"
10. Share a few words of wisdom: "Ninnie Knees Up!"



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May. 1st, 2003 03:58 am (UTC)
The hair is cute! Wuthering Heights is a great song now it's running through my head too.
My boringness is really why I don't post very often. As I was mentioning to my dinner guest last night....Come home from work eat dinner read book watch porn fall asleep.
May. 1st, 2003 05:25 am (UTC)
Heh, I know that feeling. If I really wrote journal entries about what I did all day, they'd all be big posts about boring work stuff followed by boring bebe things, and the occasional TV show or movie recap. Whee.
(no subject) - snidegrrl - May. 1st, 2003 11:41 am (UTC) - Expand
May. 1st, 2003 05:26 am (UTC)
Oooh, that's an awesome quiz, I will have do that... tomorrow.
May. 1st, 2003 06:06 am (UTC)
I like the orangy-copper hair thing. It's not like Tang; it's more like fall leaves.

If you have to be compulsive, Kate Bush isn't a bad choice. It's better than Bear in the Big Blue House soundtrack, which is way better than it should be.

I don't believe that the fact that everyone is now getting their 15 blog-entries of fame will diminish fame and celebrity in our society. It may make it ever more fickle, but people feel the need to idolize others. They like to do it. If they idolize a blogger, and later find out its their next-door neighbor, I doubt there will be much soul-seaching about the meaning of fame.

Still, I'm facinated with that middle-fame that many people have. Just enough fame that everyone knows you, but not enough fame to make a living off of it. Or huge fame in one area, but total annonimity everywhere else. LJ is a great example. Being wildly, insanely popular on LJ won't get you stopped on the street. LJ and blogging in general is a tiny, tiny corner of this world. Bigger than it used to be, but tiny still.

The world's just getting so big, that even a tiny corner is a pretty comfy place. And if one can be king there, I guess that's something. People get very excited about being king in the SCA.... But then again, I'm sure the PM race in Canada matters there. :)
May. 1st, 2003 11:50 am (UTC)
I love the Bear in the Big Blue House, and I don't even have kids. :)

I don't like idolizing people. I have this feeling of, I would like to turn my attention away from people who already get enough attention. I want all the people I love to feel idolized and adored. It's WAY more rewarding for everyone involved. Does that make sense?

In regards to middle fame, when I saw you post about your book I thought to myself, "OH MY GOD I KNOW SOMEONE WHO WROTE A BOOK!!!". So, um, yeah. You're middle famous!!!

And I wasn't trying to compare my friends list to me having fame, I was just like, "oh dear, this is almost ostentatious, it is an embarassment of the good kind of riches." It just started the train of thought that led me around to thinking about celebrity. :)

Also, you have to be careful of tiny-place megalomania. I think it happens in the SCA and I know I saw it in the Camarilla. People seek power in a small pond because they get off on having power and this is somewhere they can get it. Ugh.
(no subject) - vileone - May. 1st, 2003 12:04 pm (UTC) - Expand
May. 1st, 2003 06:17 am (UTC)
Heh. Your hair looks like mine, but I think you're better suited for the orange than I. ^_^ I was trying to cut to the chase and dye my hair blondish red, which is what it always fades to, and went a little too far on the coppery/orange side. Thankfully mine's fading (and thankfully it wasn't as orange as my one and only experience with henna).
May. 1st, 2003 11:53 am (UTC)
Well, if I'm right about the way Feria behaves on my hair, it'll be brown again within a week or two. So not too many worries. Not to mention I just got half the hair I dyed cut off. ;)
May. 1st, 2003 06:45 am (UTC)
OOh! You are fameous? If I bring a sharpe, would you sign my...ahem.. :)

Sorry, got carried away. The hair is a nice shade.
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May. 1st, 2003 12:23 pm (UTC)
I don't have a copy of it! But I sure wouldn't mind having one.

And thanks for the seal of approval. :) I think you might rescind it if you saw me in person though. :) I shall try to keep abreast of visiting dates! It's only been, er, a few years since I met you. Heh.
May. 1st, 2003 08:23 am (UTC)
I'd think that rather than deconstructing fame, it is rather creating another avenue for it.

For example, the penny arcade guys are something like celebrities when they go to a convention or something. People get them to autograph stuff, and take pictures with them and stuff.

The biggest function of the internet is for entertainment. (Thanks porn!) So it sort of fits that there has been some celebrity stuff coming along with it. You happen to have a lot of people who are entertained by your journal posts. I'd bet that an enterprising individual, could invent a group of a half dozen or so people, post some sexy pictures of them, write some exciting soap opera type stories in the first person, and post them on here and get a much bigger following though.

At the moment, I think the web celebrities don't quite inspire the same amount of awe that those folks in the movies do. But people on the web are generally much more accessible to the average fan Partly due to the nature of the web, and partly due to the relative smallness of the following. If I want to talk to the penny arcade guys, I just send them an email. Catherine Zeta-jones won't even retutn my calls.

May. 1st, 2003 12:04 pm (UTC)
Re: Hmm.
From my above response to vileone:

I don't like idolizing people. I have this feeling of, I would like to turn my attention away from people who already get enough attention. I want all the people I love to feel idolized and adored. It's WAY more rewarding for everyone involved. Does that make sense?

Your response just engenders this feeling in me further... celebrity, fame, mini-fame, are so easily constructed!

Although to counter that, the PA guys at least have something *obviously* cool and unique that requires talent and wit, insofar as the examples you've presented.

Still doesn't answer my fundamental issue which is, it seems to me that people find famous people/celebrities' lives to be more exciting than theirs. Who wrote the Book of Exciting anyways??
Re: Hmm. - booyeah - May. 1st, 2003 12:12 pm (UTC) - Expand
Re: Hmm. - snidegrrl - May. 6th, 2003 01:08 am (UTC) - Expand
Re: Hmm. - me_not_you - May. 1st, 2003 12:57 pm (UTC) - Expand
Re: Hmm. - booyeah - May. 1st, 2003 05:46 pm (UTC) - Expand
Re: Hmm. - snidegrrl - May. 6th, 2003 01:10 am (UTC) - Expand
May. 1st, 2003 09:11 am (UTC)
I used some musings on fame to convince me to get my first tattoo in a publicly-visible place. Because why should only famous people get to get away with that? In our society, to have visible tattoos is only okay for fringe-types ("They'll never hold a real job anyway") and for celebrities. Because celebrities can do damn well what they please (or close to it). And that isn't fair!

I have much more I could natter on about this, but work is too busy. =)
May. 1st, 2003 12:09 pm (UTC)
Rock on sister! This reminds me, when I was in the Old Navy there was this girl working that had a HUGE tattoo on her neck and a ring in her nose. Most retail places won't let you do that. Go Old Navy! Even if ON has some OTHER problems.
May. 1st, 2003 09:11 am (UTC)
Somehow, someway, I am going to work the phrase "wankfest of mutual admiration" into the conversation the next time I talk to my mom. Just to see if she says anything.
May. 1st, 2003 11:56 am (UTC)
I sometimes wonder what my mom thinks when she reads the stuff I write on here, this being an excellent example. It hinges on her comprehension of the term "wank" I suppose.
May. 1st, 2003 09:31 am (UTC)
that's a gorgeous color! sort of electric pumpkin. i admire it. i also admire the wankfest of mutual admiration. great phrase!
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May. 1st, 2003 12:16 pm (UTC)
You're hair looks awesome. I like the orange!
May. 1st, 2003 12:59 pm (UTC)
I realized that the few people... liked me enough to want to hear more, which is a huge compliment.

Nah. It's just that I haven't figured out how to remove you yet. ;-)

May. 2nd, 2003 05:46 am (UTC)
It is obvious that you have decided not to pursue the day shift. Seems that not too lon ago you were assuring someone you wouldn't dye your hair...
May. 6th, 2003 01:00 am (UTC)
Re: Orangehead
I was assuring them I would not dye it some *unnatural* color. This was supposed to look natural. Fortunately it has mellowed with age.
May. 3rd, 2003 02:25 pm (UTC)
Zap Mama
1. Are you male or female?: Poetry Man
2. Describe yourself: Warmth
3. How do some people feel about you?: Damn Your Eyes
4. How do you feel about yourself?: Joggina a Tombouctou
5. Describe your girlfriend/boyfriend/interest[/spouse]: Call Waiting
6. Where would you rather be?: New World
7. Describe what you want to be: My Own Zero
8. Describe how you live: Timidity
9. Describe how you love: Warmth
10. Share a few words of wisdom: Comment ca va?
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